My mother's death saved my life...

Many times in my life from a child to an adult, I have wondered (not in anger, but in loneliness) why God would send me into a family where I would lose my mother at the age of five.. parents struggle so hard at the loss of a child.. but few consider a child who spends a lifetime without that one person that usually has their back...

but hindsight is 20/20 they say.. and after many battles that exhausted me, hell recently sent what he thought was the deathblow.. and man it felt like it, I will never fully recover from the pain and loss, not in this life.. I would have taken my life. I wanted to. I considered it, and sought God about it, for permission, for mercy, for an escape from the pain that literally wretches my stomach daily so that I could vomit with little effort... even now.

but he didn't even have to say much as his response.. he would just begin to flash my life before my eyes, and all the moments of my mother's absence that left me... with such a void, culminating to when I became a mother myself.. holding my first born, feeling such a loss of not having my mother as I had become a mother myself.. it was tuff.. and then I understood why he placed me in the family he chose specifically for me. I got to see first hand how my absence would affect my kids. How much they needed someone to watch their back even when they don't fully realize it.

And I chose to stay. God knew I would. It was never his will that I lose my mother, but he knows the circumstances of free will and has promised to use all for our good. Her death shaped something in me that God knew I would need at this time of my life, to save my life, to not rob my children and grandchildren of blessing. We don't always understand situations concerning family or why God places us together with who we are to walk this life out with. You don't get to choose your parents or your siblings or your kids. God chooses, because their life and choices, good and bad, will form things in your character affecting your choices. God always has a plan to bring goodness forth in our lives from EVERYTHING. My mother's death saved my life.

I don't question God about the things I walk thru in life.. I ask him a lot of questions along the way.. but I have learned to trust him no matter the appearance of things. I have no mother on this earth.. but I have his Spirit who serves in that role in my life. And when I feel alone, he is quick to remind me that I am not. And that is my peace, no matter what I face in this life, past or present or future. He is with me, and also with you.

Family.

Don't question it.. just trust God to help you do your best.
He will cover you when others sin against you, and
He will protect them from your failures and use it for good in their lives somehow. Don't let hell lie to you, or pull you into the blame game, you have more say in the matter than you realize, more power because of the enemies attack, if you continue to trust and obey God ♥

 

 

 

 

 

Stock Piling Ammo

Haha.. just blogged some things similar to this.. once again, so cool when God confirms things.. and he seems to be sending confirmation to the things he is speaking to the church instantaneously.. so ask him for direction, ask him what he ...would speak to you and the ppl in your life right now... ask.. he is answering and confirming so clearly.. as tho there is a special anointing loosed or door opened to the throne room.. ramp up your prayer and praise time this week.. and treasure the presence of God that is so near at the moment.. it is a sure sign that something big is coming.. and he is equipping and strengthening his ppl ♥

 

"Victory depends upon the refusal to allow our eyes to wander, our minds to settle, and affections to run after the things that draws away from Christ." –Alistair Begg

 

Think of it like stock piling spiritual ammo ^_^


 

Forgiveness Defined... (Matthew 18)

Here is Forgiveness defined and explained.. all four portions of Matthew chapter 18 explain different things to consider concering forgiveness when a Christian sins against another Christian..

so many ppl call the discipline part of this UNFORGIVENESS because they have drifted to their own morality or a false humility and missed the truth of the Word of God. At the same time.. God makes it clear in the other three instances.. Forgiveness is a given, you must.

But sometimes it is coupled with not so pretty consequences when Christians continue in sin.


~ At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Who, then, is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?”

2 He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. 3 And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. 5 And whoever welcomes one such child in my name welcomes me.

Causing to Stumble

6 “If anyone causes one of these little ones—those who believe in me—to stumble, it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea. 7 Woe to the world because of the things that cause people to stumble! Such things must come, but woe to the person through whom they come! 8 If your hand or your foot causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life maimed or crippled than to have two hands or two feet and be thrown into eternal fire. 9 And if your eye causes you to stumble, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into the fire of hell.


~ The Parable of the Wandering Sheep

10 “See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven. [11] [a]

12 “What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? 13 And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. 14 In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should perish.


~ Dealing With Sin in the Church

15 “If your brother or sister[b] sins,[c] go and point out their fault, just between the two of you. If they listen to you, you have won them over. 16 But if they will not listen, take one or two others along, so that ‘every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.’[d] 17 If they still refuse to listen, tell it to the church; and if they refuse to listen even to the church, treat them as you would a pagan or a tax collector.

18 “Truly I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will be[e] bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be[f] loosed in heaven.

19 “Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. 20 For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”


~ The Parable of the Unmerciful Servant

21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?”

22 Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.[g]

23 “Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. 24 As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand bags of gold[h] was brought to him. 25 Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.

26 “At this the servant fell on his knees before him. ‘Be patient with me,’ he begged, ‘and I will pay back everything.’ 27 The servant’s master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.

28 “But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred silver coins.[i] He grabbed him and began to choke him. ‘Pay back what you owe me!’ he demanded.

29 “His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, ‘Be patient with me, and I will pay it back.’

30 “But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. 31 When the other servants saw what had happened, they were outraged and went and told their master everything that had happened.

32 “Then the master called the servant in. ‘You wicked servant,’ he said, ‘I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. 33 Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’ 34 In anger his master handed him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.

35 “This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from your heart.”

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Matthew 18 FORGIVENESS DEFINED

1. Believers must become as children, meaning obedient to their loving heavenly Father. If a person becomes a Christian, a child of God, anyone who sins against them will deal with their papa, and there will be consequence.

2. However, there are many children in the family of God and he loves them all equally. Sometimes children go astray.. and they wander from ob...edience bringing harm to themselves and separation from their papa. But he will pursue them and give them every opportunity to return to the flock.

(God loves the 99.. and he loves the ones that wander, sin against the family.
He loves us all, discipline or no discipline, he loves us. Altho keep in mind that wandering is different than rejecting him as their father and leaving. He will still reach out to them and go after them, but he will not force them to return.)

3. For those who claim to be part of the family but they CONTINUE to sin against other christians and against God.. there is a harsh consequence as long as they continue in that sin. THIS IS NOT UNFORGIVENESS, tho many in the church define it as such.

4. And lastly is a word to those sinned against.. FORGIVENESS IS A MUST. God has forgiven us of much.. we are to forgive other Christians when they sincerely repent. MERCY. MERCY. MERCY. God says is always priority. Even tho, sometimes that MERCY must go hand in hand with DISCIPLINE and CONSEQUENCE when repentance is refused and ppl continue in their sin.

A Command To This Generation

~ First tell me what the Word of God says Forgiveness should look like.. just be sure to take in to account the whole of what he said, and not just a favorite verse or trendy story or hypocritical loophole...

The upside of the enemy's attempts to redefine things in these last days, an emerging response to all the decption and rampant lies coming from the mouths of ppl in every walk of life and in ...every position of power... is that ppl are returning to the Word of God and studying what the true definitions are.. as defined by God, and his Word, with his Spirit called alongside to interpret and explain...

Ppl are dusting off their Bibles so that Good and Truth are no longer gray.. and you know that that means?...

As doing what's right and cleanliness are held back up in the light... everything else, both gray and darkness, will be seen for what it is.. ungodly... not just 50 shades of gray, but all that is gray will be seen for what it is.. sin and lust and evil.

It's Truth, the light that Christ brought... that will become clearer in this hour.
Proof once again that where sin does abound.. grace does much more abound.


~ I think that's how things got so screwed up... the world became so fast paced that we failed to discipline ourselves to keep the foundations solid. We began to teach what ppl said the Bible said, instead of reading and studying it for ourselves.. so that we lost the true definitions of godliness that God set for us to live by. It's time to return. It's time to challenge one another in personal stu...dy of the Word of God. To dig. My generation has alot to clean up and seek God to restore.. but this generation has a huge choice and responsibility of it's own before God.

Love and learn from the generations before you.
You're own failures will show themselves in time, and you will need the same love from those who follow after you, gleaning and learning from your example.

But the call to war for you right now.. is to return to the Word of God. Get it in your hands and your heart and your mind and your mouth.. feel the weight of it like a balanced sword, seek God to train you as you study it, so that you can handle it rightly, cutting to the heart of the matter, to the truth that is God's truth... always with love coupled with wisdom as God leads.

A command to this generation: Gear up!




 

A word for the Church... REPENT

Definitely an epidemic of Christians failing to know what they believe and why they believe it.. but it would seem that the greatest contributor to the falling away we have seen in recent years is more a sin of leadership factor. When you look across the church and you see leaders (parents, worship, teachers, preachers, deacons, etc..) committing adultery, lying to cover up some sin, living for se...lf, looking nothing like Christ...

And the majority of the others in the church covering it up in the name of being peace-makers and enablers of false-humility.. or just not wanting to acknowledge the mess and filth in the church because it's easier to look the other way.. when good leaders are blackballed, gagged, and ousted time and time again so others eaten up with selfish ambition and lust for power and popularity can party in the pews...

Sounds so far fetched.. but it is the face of the church.. leaking out from behind the mask and now a gross undeniable stench before God. Gossip and rumors and slander against good ppl, adopted as truth by others based on titles and deception and selfishness, rather than TRUTH.

And in the meantime.. a generation of teen and college age Christians watching it all unfold.. watching mom and dad wallowing in the midst it, jumping from bed to bed.. devastated by the lame excuses offered by teachers and leaders they once admired... and we wonder at the great falling away we are witnessing.. we wonder how atheism and it's many lame theories has gained such a stronghold in a generation?... there is no one to blame but ourselves.

We may boast that our example is one thing.. but the great cloud of witnesses around us sees something very different… something that looks nothing like the Jesus we talk about.

Repentance.
It begins with each of us.

Adulterers and adulteresses should not be allowed to marry in the church.
Let them take such things of the world to the world and marry at the courthouse.
If a man has a past of pornography and affairs and such, don't put him in ministry over women and children… let him serve with other men.
If a leader demands that you take oaths to keep silent about secret conspiracies against the denomination over him, and blackballs everyone that doesn't throw their lot in with him... someone speak up.

Sin.

The church is eaten up with it.. and a generation is sick of it, lost hope, lost faith, lost trust... yes, have an answer for the atheists.. that's Bible.. but if we are sleeping with our husbands best friends and then standing on a stage leading a dance team as tho God is honored by our worship... what spirit is that of?... Or if we lead a worship team and sing and cry about the forgiveness God brings, while we are doing the women on our worship team?.. what the hell?

The great falling away is due to our failure.
Our failure to resist evil and flee from sin,
Our failure to hold ppl accountable for their sin as we extend mercy and love to them,
Our failure to speak when it becomes sin to remain silent,
Our failure to defend based on truth rather than what allows us to live lukewarm.

Repentance.
It is the only answer.

Not words.. but a turning away, a confession of the heart, a cutting off of certain privilege, an agreement that we have consequences that we need to embrace, a personal accountability even if leaders and those who love us offer us excuse.

Repentance to not only turn us from our sin.. but to turn a generation back to God.
Find a worship service, or create one, go in sackcloth and ashes (humility in appearance and heart), and ask God to come and judge you according to his wisdom and his mercy. Change whatever it takes , whatever he says, and walk a different way, the right way. And don't look at others expecting them to do the same.. look at you.. and pray that God would do the same work in every life that your life touches.

Pray for right leadership as the church is cleaned up, one by one,
by ONE. In the name of Jesus ♥
Amen.