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~ I remember when I was going thru the most hurtful time of my life.. and ran into an old friend from an old church.. she gave me some advice that would have been wisdom for her.. but was not the way God was leading me.. her word to me was, "it's time to grow up."

Didn't receive much of what she said because, that wasn't the character of the God I know. He would never rebuke me for not being like her, for not living a sober and staunch life that she had chosen. My stubbornness to continue to believe and hope in things that the world (and much of the modern day church) says isn't rational or logical is foolish to most, childish..

so yes then, I am a fool about many things. But my heart remains at peace with God.. and if walking the way his Spirit directs me is failing to be as mature as others.. that's okay with me. As long as I remain my heavenly Father's little girl.. I don't mind being a fool to the world and the staunch <3


~ I pray I never grow up to be like such a mindset.. if it means that I must lose the warmth and hope that God will fulfill every good work that he has begun in my life. May I always be a fool and a child in the eyes of such ppl... as long as it allows me to climb up in the lap of my Abba at any given moment, and to ask him about anything, knowing he will answer, trusting his answers.. I think so many ppl in the church have grown cold and lost sight of how warm and loving our heavenly Father is. I pray that God would work miracles in their lives so that they will desire to be children again, his children <3


~ I had other friends speaking into my life.. things that challenged me and rebuked me at times.. but I recognized that voice.. I knew in a moment that it was my Abba's loving discipline and direction and salvation... to keep me from sin and death.. we must not lose the love and warmth of a loving relationship with our heavenly Father, but we must not make the mistake of forgetting that he diciplines those whom he loves.. knowing him.. as his children.. so key.